pork tenderloin....

the past few days have gone pretty well. monday my menu was awesome and although i was starving after dinner i resisted and had a glass of milk before bed instead of eating again. thanks to a few glares from csaba. to give an example i had mini wheats for breakfast. a few small pieces of homemade granola (coutesy Sanchez restaurant) and half of a small banana muffin, for lunch i had a chicken salad pita sandwich that i had made up with lettuce and small amount of shredded cheese and grapes. (also one breadstick from csaba's lunch) for dinner we had pork tenderloin with steamed green beans and baked sweet potatoes. One piece of fresh vienna bread. for dessert i had an apple with a teeny tiny amount of peanut butter. I walked on the treadmill for a while that day too. yesterday was a day of eating out- breakfast was a bagel with egg, lunch was chicken and rice- in a curry sauce but i didn't slop up the sauce with my rice, just picked the chicken out. dinner wasn't so great but i had a good time with my dad, we got thin crust pizza that tasted kind of like cardboard so i didnt eat that much and a glass of chocolate milk before bed because i thought it might make my throat feel better ;) kidding. I didn't walk yesterday but was pretty active and went on a mini walk with dad between his house and grandma's. the past two days i have felt like i haven't even slept and i have a really sore throat and earache, so i believe i am getting sick. i can get weighed on friday at the doctor's office... if it goes up i will be ticked! :)

so far so good...

ok so i am proud of myself. not only did i eat pretty good this weekend i also managed to avoid almost two days of brownies and cupcakes. i indeed, broke down yesterday and had 1 brownie. but i made up for it by eating super healthy the rest of the day (as far as i think anyway!). saturday was a day of activity which was hard after not sleeping friday night (awful headache) so i did get in some exercise too. i'm going to try this week's menu as healthy as possible and then maybe try alli as well. first, i have to see if i can decrease the fat intake. so on the menu for dinner's this week: tomato and bread salad, black eyed pea gumbo, garlic and rosemary chicken (with asparagus and rice), basil chicken over angel hair pasta, avocado and tuna tapas, pork tenderloin with sweet potatoes and green beans and chicken salad pitas with lettuce and grapes. so far for breakfasts i have been having mini wheats, a change from the english muffins. i wanted some white grapefruit but they only had the red/pink icky nasty kind at the store, maybe another week. i skipped walking this morning because i was completely exhausted but plan on getting on the treadmill tonight.

that thing was heavy!

ok so the treadmill is now upstairs...complete with a window view, jerry rigged fan and place to hold my kindle. i am now rewarding myself with books for walking. last night i tried a run and i thought the machine would break so i slowed it back down. been walking twice a day now for the past few days, morning and evening and plan on building up my time. i think my goal is 20 lbs for loss and we'll see where i am when i get there. not sure on a time frame... but just put some new healthy recipes in my allrecipes box to start trying too....

sweetness

ok...the count is in. 189lbs. i know, i would like to say most of that is muscle. i have ALOT of leg muscle. ok, i will shut up now. anyway the i told the dr about what i was doing but he didnt say much. blood pressure is WAY down. which is awesome since it was rollercoastering all around for a few months. this weekend was a mix of good and bad with my eating. for the most part sedentary on the movement front. garage sale work requires alot of sitting evidently. i did, however read three books. maybe i can have csaba set up the treadmill again and read and walk at the same time. that might be my motivation again. anyway... back to this weekend. friday was decent, ate dinner at about 10pm though because of timing and going out and such. i tried to limit my portion and didnt eat much of the dinner. saturday i declare that i had breakfast burritos...i did. i admit it. my downfall. oh breakfast burritos, how i love you. i skipped lunch since i had that late and had a decent healthy dinner. sunday was ok, minus the ice cream but the boys loved it and it was a fathers day treat. yesterday was also good but i did have a kitkat... so my conclusion. cut out the sweets, man.

food FAIL

ok so getting back into food journaling for the past two days.
tuesday was great. breakfast: english muffin with a slice of ham and cheese (i know peanut butter would be a better alternative but i need SOME life) for lunch: leftover penne pasta with all the yummy veggies from the night before. dinner: a small bowl of chicken soup and part of a tiny chicken ceasar salad. snacks??: WALNUTS and a cereal bar. so, overall not too bad. except for when i woke up the next morning i was STARVING. it was the dinner from the night before, i wasn't so hungry but i paid for it later. yesterday was a horrible horrible day on the food front. breakfast: two muffin sandwiches (SHAME) lunch: a sammie from quiznos because of the worskhop i was at offered this as my lunch. dinner: PIZZA. many slices. lost count after one. snack: DONUT. damn that meeting. next time, bring my own or offer healthier solution.
beverages both days: lots and lots of water, one can of diet coke each day. movement?: ha, what movement? ok, i exaggerate a bit here. tuesday i tried to take the dogs for a walk. let's just say i almost got up close and personal with the pavement thanks to koo. that half a block felt like three blocks after what i went through. i turned around came home and hid inside my headache the rest of the evening. yesterday i spent a few hours on my feet getting boxes moved and unloaded for a garage sale, and also quite a bit on my feet during a presentation for work. still doesnt even out all that pizza i ate...

curves

ok so someone asked me if i was going to show before and after photos. well fine, here we go, with curves. some nicely tucked into some great jeans that show them off in a good way.

alright, that's not so bad. still a bit thick around the middle. why don't we get into a little bit of biology here... women traditionally have more fat around their middles than men because that protects the babies they carry in their stomachs a little bit better. or so i hear... wait, is this an excuse?

so here's what yesterday consisted of:

breakfast: bowl of special k with 2%milk because that's what get bought when i don't do the shopping. yes, i am blaming csaba again here. don't get me wrong, i love thick milk- but i know it's not as healthy. snack: special k cereal bar. found that i enjoy the south beach protein bars much better, they have more flavor and more protein. i was told to eat these at the end of my pregnancy with zsolt because they have 8g of protein per bar in them. lunch: leftovers, small piece of chicken, green beans and wild rice, good portion sizes. (and when i say good, i mean healthy not... GOOD) snack: small piece of fresh bread with peanut butter. dinner: bowl of penne pasta with kielbasa (not low fat) squash, zucchini, onions, tomatoes, and a small sprinkling of 'parma-john' cheese. (zsolt still can't say it right). portion size probably could've been a bit less but i was HUNGRY. beverages: lots and lots and lots of water. one glass of chocolate milk (this was a compromise). movement: 100 crunches (5 different positions, 20 each) 50 leg lifts, some yoga stretches.

a word on portions: i do know what healthy portions are. a few years ago while doing some BLAND diet (which actually worked really well) i had to measure out my food. i have a pretty good eye now about what is good and what is too much. i just tend to ignore it most times :)

Something has to be done....

ok... so after many many months, years even, of being unhappy with my weight this is how i have decided to go about getting happy about it. but, i've tried the diets, the makeovers, the exercise plans.... and yes some of them worked but eventually i fell off the wagon. this time, this i have to make so spectacular in end result that i would be too scared to ever go back to the dark side.
truths:
i know i love my curves. but there are just a few too many.
i have not known my weight since i had my son, 4.5 years ago.... i ever so nicely ask the doctor not to tell me.
i judge weight loss based on jean size and how well they fit.... currently a size 12. sometimes a bit of a mushroom top, depending.
i used to do crunches every night while watching tv, and it helped.
formerly a pilates/yoga fan.
i love vegetables.
i hate fruit.
i have not been a size 8 since my first year at college......
i have an office job where i sit, most of the day
i have been a bit more active in the past month due to moving to a house with sidewalks.
my husband bought me a video game for my birthday when i asked for a bike... ok, sorry, had to mention that here...seemed a bit fitting, i know it's not your fault, honey.
typical breakfast: english muffin made at home with a slice of cheese, slice of ham, sometimes a fruit smoothie.
typical lunch: varies- sandwich, salad, leftovers from dinner night before, eating out could be anything from pesto cavatappi with a cucumber/tomato salad to chicken nuggets with fries.
typical dinner: varies from pasta and bacon to chicken, rice and green beans. overall not too shabby on the health scale.
snacks: occasionally- chocolate chip cookies with milk, at night. chips and salsa, every now and then- CHEETOS, south beach protein bar- cinnamon/raisin (YUM), carrots.

conclusions:
exercise more.
love self.
eat less. or maybe eat healthier.
get better sleep.
reward self with lots of new, expensive clothes......ok, this will be harder to achieve.

how do i get there?
step 1. get weighed
step 2. eat cookies.


ok i am kidding.
let's start simple.
1. get weighed
2. talk to doctor
3. make an exercise plan that is easy enough to achieve. maybe twice around the block instead of once every night. crunch routine needs to be reinstated. buy a bike. scout parks.
4. continue eating right, more emphasis on veggies and healthy snacks.
5. blog.