harp and choir

well...saturday was definitely a fail. i had company over this weekend and saturday managed to screw up my entire day with just breakfast. biscuits, sausage, cheese, eggs, ORANGE JUICE. and although i kept my portion sizes to a decent level... it was still bad. lunch was pretty good, i had leftovers from dinner a few nights before. dinner saturday was probably bad too, i had a salad, good start, then some pasta with alfredo sauce-low sugar, high fat- and then when everyone else was ordering dessert i did too. i'm not sure why. desserts are just too sweet for me, and it didnt' even taste good. it was dry, dry chocolate cake. i didn't finish it, which my grandma made sure to point out. she did comment on me losing weight. which is like a light shining down from the heavens above when grandma gives you a compliment. (complete with harp and choir) usually it's....kristian? what are you doing with your hair? i remember one time when i was pregnant she commented on the size of my butt. how nice. sunday i was back on track, had a piece of toast with sugar free jelly and a leftover piece of sausage for breakfast. some cheese and crackers for a snack at dad's....oh. oh maybe i wasn't back on track. i had a chicken sandwich from mcdonald's with a small fry for lunch. iced tea. some chips for a snack and then a chicken fajita for dinner. cookies. guh. what is wrong with me? well they were sugar free...but i guess not calorie free. i am wondering i i should look at this and compare it to how i do every day or to how i did BEFORE. if i compare it to every day i did horrible. bad bad kristian. but if i compare to how i used to do...then i did great.

i'm having another one of those days where i feel like i'm doing horrible but in reality i'm not. it's becoming a theme and i'm not sure how to get through it. no new progress, i guess that intial loss was it before a plateau. yesterday was good, i had a bowl of rice chex for breakfast, a brick oven style margarita pizza- tomatoes, mozz, basil on homemade crust for lunch with a salad and iced tea and for dinner i had a small portion of whole wheat pasta with turkey kielbasa and veggies. but after my photo workshop i got home and was starving so i had another small bowl of rice chex. overall not too bad i don't think. i know i didnt push fluids as i am supposed to just because i was at home and not thinking about it. i have been really really tired this week, not sleeping well and i think maybe that is a factor in how i am feeling. i am also a bit sick so my defenses are down. yesterday i had quite a dizzy spell when i was at my photo workshop. had to plant my feet on the floor and grip my seat. i have had a few of these in the past few weeks. not sure if it's neurological and combined with my headaches or if it's low blood pressure (that's a change) or what. my thought of it being low sugar was brought down by csaba :) i was thinking ice cream sounded good then.

more progress

i am proud to say that this weekend was GREAT! again i'm going through a bit of a tough time with needing something thicker to drink than water. I had a bit of milk this weekend but I watched the portion sizes. It's good for bones anyway so i'm going to keep it around. just not in large quantities or every day even. back on track today with my normal menus. i even passed some of the info on to my dad. we'll see if he tries it ;)

a bit of a wrinkle here but that's ok. the hips have slimmed down which is really nice. these are my skinny jeans...

i am noticing a dramatic difference in my face. which is why i included this photo.